Posted by blueberry on July 6, 2006, at 17:51:31
Thank you all for you prayers, your good wishes, and wondering where I was. You are so kind and thoughtful.
While in the partial day program doing group therapy, the staff pulled me aside and said they could see I was having a real hard time and that I should be in the hospital as an inpatient.
The hospital was excellent (Southern Maine Medical Center). Good doctors, excellent nurses and staff, very professional, clean, and organized. TV room, large kitchen, piano, painting, games, good menus, pretty good food and lots of it.
I was in no shape to go home, but insurance ran out. They started me on 5mg lexapro for 2 days and then up to 7.5mg, along with my 2.5mg zyprexa, and they added .5mg klonopin at bedtime. I'm still extremely depressed with crying spells and wishing to die, but not quite as bad as it was a week ago.
Two doctors and several nurses spoke very highly of the ECT program and how they thought I was a good candidate for that. So I got the preliminary tests done to pave the road. Still thinking about it. It takes a 6 week chunk out of your life since you can't work or drive and will be dazed and confused a lot. But then, that isn't a whole lot different than how I am already or what meds do to me. They say they see a 70% to 90% success rate with ECT in people like me. The lower success rates are with the elderly. ECT has come a long way recently and everyone involved spoke very highly about it.
Still hanging in there. I thank you all for your prayers and good wishes. I have prayers for you all as well.
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