Posted by CEK on June 14, 2006, at 19:02:05
In reply to Re: Manic Depression / Bi-Polar Heaven Help Me » KayLen, posted by KayLen on June 14, 2006, at 12:30:44
I had been diagnosed as just having major depression for 6 years. No AD gave me much relief. I had mentioned to my doctor about the constant mood swings I would have daily since I was in high school and they dismissed it. I don't mean occaisional ups and downs for a reason, I mean several mood swings daily for no reason at all. There was never a truly normal time for me since I can remember. During the good mood swings I felt high. So elated. I had so much energy and talked non stop. I felt like I had the ability to concure all of my dreams. Then within an hour, for no reason, I would be in a dark depression. After six years of the ADs, Cymbalta being my last, I started to expirence real mania. Not very severe, but definitely not what I had ever felt. I would feel so euphoric and didn't worry about consiquences for my actions. I ran my mouth too much and said things that were better left unsaid, but I got started spending money like it was never going to run out. In one month on ebay, I spent $3000.00. Money that should've been spent on bills. I had no regard for anything but the spending. It felt so good. During these spells, I couldn't stop spending money. I ran up all of our credit cards, used all of our savings and now that my condition has literally disabled me, we are in the hole and I'm struggling to pay my bills and can't even afford to pay for the pdoc, psychiatrist or meds. I do it because I have to by robbing Peter to pay Paul. We are now having to sell our Tahoe which we love to try to pay off some bills so we can afford groceries ect. When my mania kicked in so did major compulsive eating. I would want to eat anything I could get my hands on and eat until I hurt even though I had been watching my weight for the last 3 years since I lost all of the weight I gained from having my 3 children. I went from a size 6 to a size 16 within 6 months. All my hard work down the drain. I have completely destroyed everything I have worked so hard to acheive by these uncontrollable actions. We went from high on the hog to the poor house in months. It wasn't until I saw my second pdoc that I was diagnosed as bipolar 2. I am now on a mood stablizer and it is helping the mania, but not the depression. I wish that my doctor years ago would've just guessed at me being bipolar and tried a different type of med and maybe I could've avoided all of this.
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