Posted by CEK on May 8, 2006, at 12:04:44
In reply to Re: Bipolar II? Just what is this?? » fionamck, posted by crystee on May 8, 2006, at 11:34:02
Fionamck, you and I are just alike. It was strange to read your post because that is exactly what life is like for me. My mood swings are all over the place but I never have a real "manic" episode. I've been diagnosed with just major depression for 6 years and was taking just AD's. The depression never got better, only the irritation. The mood swings got worse though and I occaisionally would have a day or couple of hours where I just felt elated. My skin would just crawl it felt so good. I felt like I could go back to school, lose weight and accomplish all of my goals that seemed out of reach in my darkest depression. Usually within 5-12 hours later I was back to wanting to kill myself. I have every personal trait of borderline personality disorder but whenever I mention it to a doctor they just dismiss it saying that many diagnosed coincide with each other. I have not responded to any of the AD's and can not take anti psychotics because of bad side effects. We're trying mood stablizers right now and it's a slow go. My pdoc doesn't want me on ANY AD, he says they will only make my cycling worse. I too love the occaisional "elated" feeling and feel bitter at the doctors for wanting to take that away from me. I now am left emotionless after 6 days of 1000mg of Depakote. They say if you leave those "hypomania" times alone and not treat them with your currant depression, as time goes by and your illness worsens, the hypo will turn into full fledged mania which can be pretty bad. Have you go on the internet and try to research bipolar and it's symptoms? I've looked up all I can. I want to know for sure what's going on. That's how I found out about BPD. How are you making it living this way? Are you working? No one knew I had a problem until I cracked in January. I hid it from all but my family which didn't take me seriously. I'm not working now because of the severety of my illness and it is no better. Just because you quit your job doesn't mean all will be solved and you'll feel fine. My husband thought this and woke up to find out I was just as bad. It's not just aggrivation, it's an illness that needs to be treated, not avoided and run from. That's what I did, and now here I am. Good luck when you find your "fix" and let me know what it is so I might be able to try it. Love, CEK P.S. My diagnosed now is Bipolar 2 with mixed episodes with rapid cycling and GAD.
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