Posted by Tepiaca on April 11, 2006, at 19:46:46
In reply to Re: This has scared me........ » Tepiaca, posted by TylerJ on April 11, 2006, at 6:13:37
Today Xanax effect dissapeared . I went to 2
job interviews . I took 1 mg before the first
one at 8 AM , but it didn´t helped me . I was
scared and very unsecured . Oh no please !
Then I got another at 2 Pm , so I took another
1mg at 1Pm , but again it didn´t helped. I felt like the previous days before xanax ! .
I thougth I was finally found a good med for my
fear. But what is this??? . It was just a placebo
effect , or a tolerance or what ???Believe me I was doing things like talking by phone , chatting in msn , or walking in the streets a lot better . Very selfconfident ! like
a 70% of my capacity.
I also was sending my resumes to the best companiess , because I felt I was gonna do a good
interview and that I was goona be able to be a good worker. I even called to one company director
(he is a far friend from an uncle, not mine) . I didn´t
hesitate to call to his office to tell him I was
going to an interview , and asked him for help.
I would never has done this in the past, believe
me never ever ! . I also called uncles, exfriends
, visited some relatives , and I was fine !
I could live like those days.But now again !!!! The fear has return !!!!!!!!!
Im here alone at my house. I dont think I can´t
work. I dont wanna send more resumes , I dont wanna be called by companies . I dont wanna get
online on msn . I feel very scared . Im planing
to stay here at home since today to sunday.Ey what is wrong !! . I took Xanax same schedule as the previous days. I can´t believe this is a tolerance to the med, I have been on it nearly a week . This can´t be tolerance ! . its too early
I really don´t care If I have to augment it to 10 or 12 mg per day. Im not afraid of withdrawal !! . and why would I withdrawal if it would be working ???. Don´t tell me to be afraid
of Xanax , this benzo gave me peace
for almost a week , That is a lot for me !!
No med had done this in my last 10 years . No
benzo before. Klonopin doesnt work , neither
valium , nor ativan , nor tranxeneI am most scared of this fear to return than
taking the Xanax with his low half life even
8 or 10 times a day !. This fear is worst !!!!
I want xanax forever if it helps !! I need
to work !!!!I had stopped drinking, but now I am planning
to buy 6 beers in this moment and drink them
all ath the same time.
This things only happen to me !. Im a rare person with rare reactions to the meds . Im a freak !! . Peace never gonna come to me !.I COULD LIVE WITH A LITTLE BIT OF DEPRESSION
BUT NOT WITH FEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .
I DONT WANNA START THINKING IN SUICIDE AGAIN
EVERYTHING IS A MESS NOW !!
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