Posted by jerrympls on March 30, 2006, at 1:37:41
Adderall XR 20mg
Klonopin 4mg
hydrocodone 5mg 4x daily
Lexapro 20mg
Seroquel 100-300mg at nightI'm a musician and I don't enjoy listening to music. I feel bored. I haven't had a good belly laugh in years.
Even though this is the best med combo I've been on that has kept me from staying in bed- I go to school, etc - I still feel depressed or more dysthymic - with a LOT of anxiety and mutiple periods of strong dysphoria throughout each day.
I've grown a strong tolerance to all benzos - SSRIS just make me more apathetic. The opiate helps (hydrocodone - and yes my psychiatrist Rx'ed it to help augment the combo) but it's no panacea. I want/need to feel more calm and relaxed - no sedated - jsut not so tense. Yeah, the Adderall probably adds to the tension - but without it I'd be locked away in my apartment in my bed unable to get up and do ANYTHING. SERIOUSLY.
So - I want to enjoy music. I want the warm feeling I used to get when lsitening to msuic. I want the excitement of playing a new CD. I want to WANT to hang out with friends.
SOMEONE - please - suggestions???? I'm desperate. Please.
Jerry
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