Posted by hakan on March 1, 2006, at 13:10:04
In reply to Re: What causes depersonalization?, posted by nicky847 on February 22, 2006, at 13:46:15
Hi guys,
It has started 1 month ago after an alone session of smoking a joint.
I thought I was dead and then became alive because I remember myself shouting "Life ,life" as if I was spoking to god.
Then every 2-3 days I feel deep in what i learned yesterday "depersonalization".
I look around,see something nice, or talk with somebody, then I think whether it was a dream or not.
Or whether it is a reality or not?
I feel like I am a victim of a game which my brain creates. Like in the movie "Matrix", all the time dreaming but different than that being aware of the dream.
On the other hand,
I do think life or this dream I have lets call is beautiful. There is lots of uncertainty , and dreams :))Love or smiling.
But the bad thing about is , u cant enjoy it if you think it is a dream.
This is what I call the nightmare I experienced that night, I saw Absolute loneliness, there is one big Nothing which is dreaming till infinity,and trying to wake up but cant!
I am aware that I had a life up to now,and I will be dead sometime.But there is always a question,,is it a dream lasting for infinity????Anybody who overcomed this problem,or who experienced the same..Pleasehelp me..I am so scared to lose this dream dream only darkness till infinity....
Take care all!
hakan
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