Posted by deniseuk on January 30, 2006, at 12:12:35
In reply to Bad Thoughts vs. Bad Biology, posted by Guy on January 28, 2006, at 18:58:37
Hi Guy,
I had to respond because I've been sort of thinking about the same thing today. I was wondering how much of the way I feel has to do with the way I think and Vice versa and I sort of conclude that it's the biological feelings that come first.
But I would also say this when you talke about long term medication making things worse.
From about 17 to 24 I suffered from mild depression, which I initially experienced it thought was a serious illness, I had numerous checkups, blood tests done etc. It was only when I hit 24 and started to feel worse that I went back to the Doctor again thinking I had a serious illness. He put me on 75mg of Doxepin and I dramatically had an overnight recovery, all the vague aches and pains went, I felt more relaxed, more positive, more motivated than I ever had in my whole life.
Five years down the road and Prothiaden seemed to stop working so I came off it, when I came off it I expected to feel as bad as I had before going on it but strangely enough I didn't, I felt down but not as bad as I had at 24.
I next went onto Seroxat 20mg and within a couple of days I felt great. I stayed on that for 5 years and then decided to go it alone without drugs. For three years things were fine with the odd day here and there feeling low. But I never felt really bad.
Then when I hit the age of 35 all the feelings started to come back like an old friend, feelings of numbness, detachment, a lot of aches and pains in my spine (like you describe). This time nothing worked and the only Godsend for the really bad times was Zyprexa.I don't for one moment regret taking antidepressants and I don't blame them for the way I am today. They gave me 10 years of memories that I will always look back on fondly.
I never took antidepressants before I got depressed, I was always off them when really bad depression struck.
I have a lot of memorable dreams and this seems to be a sign that something is not right to me. So I sort of feel the way you do about something in my type of sleep that is causing it.
Kind Regards.....Denise
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