Posted by Declan on November 26, 2005, at 18:36:09 [reposted on November 26, 2005, at 23:30:32 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Self Isolation: » Declan, posted by Daniel v on November 26, 2005, at 17:48:09
Well Daniel, I have experienced something like like what you are going through. Not so bad as you, but drugs (benzos) did damage me until I could barely leave the house. A lot of fear. I had some intellectual interests (reading) that involved the way I was feeling and I did a lot of therapy which gave me a framework for it, if nothing else.
How did I get out of it? I haven't completely, but now, at 53, I know the sorts of relationships I want, the quality I want, and this I didn't have a clue about when I was younger. I mainly thought in terms of what I was meant to be doing. Now I have some idea of what I want, which (while we're at it) involves open trusting tender friendships.
And I revised my expectations downwards, and tried to remain uncolonised by current poular culture nonsense. I read the Wasteland and King Lear and reminded myself that life has been mostly awful for most people most of the time. I read a lot of history. The world can be a frightful place. Who's to say you're not right to be frightened? (You didn't say you were frightened exactly.) And then things you can't control like the Effexor manufacturors, you could let go.
We were lucky in the 70s. Popular culture had isolated bits of intelligence then. Sorry I can't make this more coherant.
Declan
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