Posted by snapper on November 24, 2005, at 4:13:52
In reply to A Mental Patient's Thanksgiving, posted by med_empowered on November 24, 2005, at 1:40:54
med_ thanks for that.... I know I feel a lot of what you feel, .maybe more and maybe lesss. I sometimes.often times look forward to the holidays and yet at the very same moment dread thier very existance. This year , and maybe part of last year, but mostly this year I am somewhat looking forward to thier being and coming to us. It shows me how far I have come in just "one" year.! I am struggling a lot, but what I do have to be thankful is a lot. last year I thought I would never be out of my parents house. Now I have my onw place and soon will be moving into an even better place! My car is a blessing ..even though I can't at the moment really afford it ...but none the less I am at a better place than I was one year ago....!! So many other things that are not all neccessarily material... the mood swings are still there, the INTENSE anxiety is ever present. But at least I am not hiding in my room at my parents home! I have made a few road-trips.. Done things that I have not done in 5 years or more and much more. The meds are not right, the lonliness is there as ever, the aches the pains ...both physically and emotionally are also there and very much a un-welcome duty of this beast of an illness. I am further now than I EVER THOUGHT I COULD BE AGAIN!!! I will not ramble.. I am thankful for the positives and the negatives ..There is growth to be found and more to come . I have re-aqquainted with MANY of my old friends and aqquaintances that I thought I would never want to see or talk to again.I am glad to report they are and were glad to see me!!! This is my thanksgiving this year ---with many smiles and many mixed in tears!! Happy TG to all. Thanks my PB FRIENDS
My best
Snapper
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