Posted by sailor on November 3, 2005, at 15:31:45
In reply to Re: Hypomania-- a solution to TR Depression?, posted by sailor on November 2, 2005, at 23:03:12
Labels revisited...Attention SLS!
I am a 58 year old man with a 30+ year history of unipolar depression, major depression, endogenous depression, treatment resistant depression, refractory depression, intractable depression, etc. More than a dozen different P-docs over the years have weighed in with other impressions of possible ADD, primary sleep disorder, borderline hypothyroidism, mercury poisoning (from dental amalgams), and yes, even Bi-polar disorder without mania!
I only know for sure that attempts to correctly diagnose me have not yet yielded help except for temporary periods, and those often accompanied by SE's ranging from annoying to debilitating. I believe my experience is not uncommon, and that the science of psychiatric diagnosis and treatment "applys" to only a fraction of sufferers. I am not a cynic and I am not angry. And I continue to research the field, primarily through this board, out of desperation.
I continue to have hope--suicide or other forms of giving up have not been an option--but I must honestly say that I am not optimistic for a "breakthrough" in my lifetime. I would love to be surprised.
Meanwhile, I'm stuck with the uneasy feeling that I don't really know what's wrong with me or what might "fix" it. Time is running out. Or, quoting Jack Nicholson: "What if this is as good as it gets?"
Still kickin', for now. Sailor
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