Posted by Guy on September 23, 2005, at 21:44:30
In reply to WARNING GEODON 50% TARDIVE DYSKINESIA RISK, posted by Jeroen on September 22, 2005, at 11:35:41
Zyprexa has recently helped me claw my way out of a suicidal cesspit. All summer long I struggled with crippling anxiety and suicidal thoughts (but no psychosis). Nevertheless, I was proud of myself for "getting by" without resorting to anti-psychotics. Finally, this fall, I was so suicidal, I started again (after a four month hiatus) on 5 mg Zyprexa combined with 1.5 mg clonazepam. The change for the better has been nothing short of miraculous. I know I can slide back down into the hole again at any moment, but for now I am just happy to have the knife removed from my throat. Deep down I suspect my brain has been severely damaged by all the meds I have tried over the past nine years...if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't touch a pharmaceutical with a barge pole. But that's all water under the bridge and now I have to make the best of a bad situation--both for myself and for the people I live with. You really have to have walked a mile in my shoes to know what I'm talking about.