Posted by B2chica on September 14, 2005, at 11:13:18
In reply to Re: Scott/SLS? ****trigger*****, posted by SLS on September 12, 2005, at 15:12:32
> > I was just wondering what you thought of this med combo, i don't know the dosages, but B2chica is suicidally depressed, and i think it's the meds (of course the alcohol doesn't help), but what do you think?
> > ritalin, wellbutrin, zyprexa and xanax (ambien and gin and tonic as needed)
> It sounds like she is self-medicating in an effort to relieve herself of anxiety. Both Ritalin and Wellbutrin can cause anxiety, which can act to propel a depressed person into a suicidal state. Wellbutrin made me feel more depressed, even though it did not produce anxiety. It intensified my dysphoria. It is difficult to guess with 100% certainty what exactly is going on here. What is she being treated for, and why were these drugs chosen for her in the first place? I am particularly interested in the Ritalin and Zyprexa.
> - Scott
yes, i'm certainly self-medicating. from the minute i get home from work i want to just go to sleep and wish the day would just end.
i haven't been drinking the last week since my S. ideation is so strong. and am so close to acting i don't need that extra push.
i'm on ritalinLA @20mg for depression and ADD, wellbutrin 300mg for depression, zyprexa @10mg for dysphoric mania? and xanax @2mg for anxiety and sleep, ambien 10-20mg PRN for sleep.
this combo used to work but i;ve had several stressors in my life lately and i'm sure are contributing.
i'm Dx with bipolar, add, ptsd, anxiety and some ocd. both my docs before were not completely convinced i was bipolar because of how the mania/euphoric and dyphoric were appearing, my T says i have schiotypal and some schizoid personality traits. thus the zyprexa?? at least once when i was in the hospital i had one of my little 'episodes' and right away they put me on zyprexa. it works but i gained 23 lbs on it. ;(
about the suicide, i'm really afraid of myself...what i hear in my head is that "i'm going to kill myself it's just a matter of when". i have the means motive and isolated location. that's why i'm probably headed back to the hospital, which causes more anxiety and more s.ideation.
i called my pdoc yesterday and he said to go to his office and pick up samples over my noon hour (extra 150 of wellbutrin), which puts me at 450mg. but he too was VERY concerned about how calm i was about the suicidal thoughts. he wanted me to go in yesterday cuz he said it's not enough time to let the meds work. so i'll probably end up back there thurs. after my T appt.
thanks for any insight to medication combo.
btw i've been on many meds before:
and maybe more that i forgot.
anyway, this time around i've really been working hard to get through. doing exactly what people say no matter how corny, i've been walking, doing housework, getting outside, going to the libraries, going into work ANYthing to distract me and wade through this. it's not going away. i just end up feeling exhausted like walking up hill against a 100 mph wind.
i know my method is a sure fire way to make S. happen.
i just need protection right now.
thanks for listening.