Posted by denise1966 on September 11, 2005, at 7:53:53
Hi,
For two years I went through the usually trials of different medication with no success, the only drug that really helped was Zyprexa 10mg every now and again. Two years ago the Seroxat at 40mg suddenly seemed to start helping, I actually started to live again and enjoy things again, only thing is I became more promiscous than I had been before because I thought what the hell I might as well enjoy everything I can while I can. I still had down periods but not half as bad. It was so nice just to be reliant on Antidepressants and not ever getting so bad that I needed Zyprexa.
As of Christmas the 40mg of Seroxat seemed to stop helping so much although I was still coping without any really bad anxiety/suicidal ideation attacks like I'd had previously.
I decided that maybe going back on Nardil again for a month and then switching back to the Seroxat might help the Seroxat to work again. This was back in June.
Anyway, I've been off Seroxat for about 3 months, just going through the washout period now from Nardil and have a week and a half to go before taking the Seroxat again.
I'm having to take the Zyprexa every 7 days otherwise I really start thinking about suicidal and I feel completely helpless and hopeless. I hate having to take Zyprexa as it means that I'm really bad again.
I'm so scared that I'll go back on the Seroxat (i intend going on at 60mg this time) and this time it won't help at all and that I'll be stuck taking Zyprexa for the rest of my life.
I hate all of this, most people don't even have to think about or worry about such things.
Denise
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