Posted by Racer on August 21, 2005, at 11:12:17
In reply to Re: Please Tell Me Why No AD Works For Me? » Racer, posted by Phillipa on August 20, 2005, at 16:38:59
>And I was put on remeron l5mg for sleep along with xanax and chloral hydrate. The remeron didn't make me tired like so many others say it does for them.
The only effect I noticed on Remeron was RAGE! I am generally a talkative-but-quiet type, and have only raised my voice about three times in the time my husband has known me -- each time with overwhelming provacation and each time with a great deal of regret afterwards. (Never at my husband, by the way.) On Remeron, though, he was afraid of me. I was afraid of me. I even told him to stay away from me, physically -- no hugs, no coming close to soothe me -- because I had so little control over myself I was afraid I'd hit him! NOT a good drug for me, huh?
Just goes to show, we all react differently. Wellbutrin, for example, is my very best friend, of everything I'm taking now.
Forgive me for breaking into your conversation with Ed, but:
>>I know Ed but would you believe it if I said I'm scared? And I don't know where everybody has found a pdoc who will add a little bit of this and a little of that. So far none of mine will. Oh, they'll give you an antianxiety med and an Ad but that's it. Fondly, Phillipa
I can absolutely understand your fear, because I've had it myself. I'm terrified by the idea of trying something new, because I've had such bad experiences in the past. And you know what? Feeling able to trust Dr CattleProd to any degree has made such a difference to me in that regard: when he prescribes something new, I know that I can call his office if there's a problem -- and get a response! Not only that, but a response that is relevant to the problem! (NOT something that happened with Dr EyeCandy...) I can't stress enough how important it is to have a pdoc you feel comfortable with.
Now, where in the country are you? What area, nearest major city maybe? Maybe someone here can suggest a doctor they've had good experiences with who you can call for a local referral?
Ed's right, too, that you'll get a lot of support here. I have used that in the past, when I needed to post daily asking for help staying with something that scared me. I've also had some wonderful people from the board call and email me daily with support and cheerleading and general hand-holding. It really does help a lot. If they'll do it for me, they'll certainly do it for you.
Good luck, Phillipa. And remember my mantra when trying new drugs: "If it's nasty, I can stop taking it..."