Posted by honeychica on August 12, 2005, at 2:38:42
I am being treated by a pdoc who insists that anyone on a benzo is addicted to benzos, and she has out right refused to prescribe them to me despite severe PTSD and GAD, due to incest, and ritual torture/sexual assault. I have been on Paxil from 1995 to 2001 then switched to Effexor XR 225 mg til 1 month ago, because of negative side effects, now Lexapro 10 mgs and a slow taper of the Effexor. Paxil gave me horrific withdrawals aNd Effexor is too but not as bad with the initiation of Lexapro, still got the "head ZAPS"....anyways, I suffer from panic attacks every day, I am hyper vigilant and yet dedicated to my recovery and have not abused drugs or alcohol for over 4 years now. I have been hospitalized for psychiatric reasons a few times and when given small doses of Ativan, have done very well, in that my blood pressure goes down immediately to normal, my panic attacks subside, it's documented....
Why the hell won't these jerks help me???? I am suffering and I can't work because of my mental illnesses! I am limited in funds and transportation and going to another psychiatrist would mean going to another counselor, I can't count how many damn counselors I've been to in the past 3 years alone!!! Not my choice either, it's because of health care coverage or they have babies or they move or they get new jobs or whatever...I am so at the end of my rope and I do not deserve to be treated like some drug addicted freak, especially since I've come so far and through so much!
So, they put me on Topamax, 25 mgs twice a day and now up to 3 a day big deal...it does NOTHING for me, and she (PDOC) told me after this I am pretty much outta options...nice huh?!?! Said that she won't bother increasing the Topamax above 75 mgs, because it's "inefficascious", well that's NOT what I've read in my reserch on it and from what others post here too!!!!
Any advice would be most welcome, Thanks!
poster:honeychica
thread:540533
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