Posted by Deneb on July 24, 2005, at 0:08:40
In reply to Re: Is the psychosis in BPD real psychosis? » Deneb, posted by Phillipa on July 23, 2005, at 23:40:08
> Deneb, Do you see things that noone else sees,
No, this one I'm almost sure of...I have seen things right before falling asleep, but I don't think that is cause for concern. I also could have been lucid dreaming or something.
> hear voices,
No, I'm pretty sure of this one too. A couple of times I think I maybe smelled something that wasn't there, but I don't think that is cause for concern either...it was probably just my over active imagination.
> think the Tv or radio is talking to only you,
No, I've never thought those things. Once I thought the world was surely going to end because a missile had been launched and I huddled on the floor rocking and moaning to myself and I think maybe hurting myself as well. I wanted the missile to come so badly. I think I was pretty out of it then...I was alone too so I wasn't being "manipulative".
>think thoughts like you're God or Jesus?
No, never thought that. It is unlikely that I would think that because I'm not a religious person at all. For a while I thought that everything in the world was for my amusement and enjoyment...even the bad things were supposed to be good etc. I was pretty darn happy and thought everything was super great. I was laughing at inappropriate things etc. It was a very fun time, but I don't think it was quite normal.
> This should give you a good idea what is a psychosis. It's not complete. Fondly,Phillipa
Off and on I've thought that certain people want me to die. Once here I thought I had to be a martyr and kill myself to save people from being blocked. I'm totally over that now, I hope.
Recently again I thought someone wanted me to die. I don't know if I really truly believed these things, but I know I was extremely extremely upset in all cases (except in the happy case)...upset enough that I think my life was in danger.
Deneb
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