Posted by linkadge on June 21, 2005, at 6:47:46
In reply to Re: Anyone TIRED on Wellbutrin XL? - ? for Scott » linkadge, posted by SLS on June 20, 2005, at 20:54:20
Cool, I can give this a try.
The suicidal state seems to be binary for me. It's just like whammo, like a swich goes on (or off) and I just want to die more than anything else. It can come right out of the blue. There semes to be no transition.
Usually a very very dark thought pops into my head. Sometimes strange thoughts that are very loose tangential. Sometimes its just an overwhelming thought of irriversable brain dammage, and in an instant nothing else matters to me. In these moments it is as if all the reality around me just ceases to exist. I cannot hear anything or see anything (so to speak)
These states seem to flick off just as quickly.
I don't really call it cycling because I don't feel much change in my mood at all. I don't really feel happy or sad, its just fine,fine,fine,fine,suicidal,fine,fine.
I wouldn't be so bothered by it, but it is of extreme intensity.
Like I have always told people. I am not depressed, I am suicidal. Thats the only way I can see it.
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