Posted by Phillipa on May 29, 2005, at 20:10:15
In reply to Re: Meds need vs addiction?? what do you think? » Phillipa, posted by SLS on May 29, 2005, at 19:20:59
SLS, Scott, Well you've got me. I've seen many different pdocs over the years. That's because I lived in Ct, VA, and now NC. They always in the beginning said Panic disorder, then anxiety/dysthemia, then PTSD, then anxiety/depression. I know I have OCD. The kind where I have to do the same things in the same order every day. And I count.
l. I'm not doing well
2.I feel helpless, and hopeless when I used to be able to travel by myself and live on my own. And I was always the best RN.
3. Taking 5mg of valium in am with 25mg of zoloft,and l0mg of valium at HS.
4. Getting in the way? I feel trapped and powerless. And afraid of my shadow. Negative. Afraid to speak up when in the past I would confront people. I even worked in a jail as an RN parttime once. And yes, afraid of the meds.
Afraid of the meds is because I was at first given only l0mg of paxil with 50mg of lopressor, and xanax and drank beer at night which the pdoc said was okay. In three months I felt good again. My hypothroidism had just occurred that year. And I found out I had chronic lymes disease. My chemistry must have changed because I tolerated 250mg of luvox. Then the pdoc switched me to paxil again, then back to luvox at 50mg. I asked why and he said the high dose was because I had been in the hospital. Then he wanted me to take part in a celexa trial. I said no so he said that I was catatonic on the luvox and dc'd it and put me on celexa. I'd never felt worse in my life. So after a month he took me off of it and put me on 5mg of ativan divided. Now comes menopause. New pdoc and anxiety off the scales. Couldn't tolerate even one day of AD;s she put me on. Goes on and on. Now nothing seems to even bother me. When you went on cymbalta last year I found Pbabble and routed you on daily. Will Scott feel better? I was crushed when it didn't work. I took up to 60mg for around 3 months and then quit as I saw no results. So that's enough for now. I went to your website in the beginning but it's closed. You are the reason I got involved in Pbabble. I didn't even know how to use a computer at the time. I would come home and say to my husband let's see how Scott is doing. He'd find the site. Fondly, Phillipa
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