Posted by 4WD on May 28, 2005, at 23:19:09
In reply to Re: the way I see it » linkadge, posted by stresser on May 28, 2005, at 21:48:00
I just want the pain to end. And when the pain is bad, like it is right now, it is impossible to feel like it will ever be better.
Right now, I'm not even depressed. I'm just suicidally scared. And I've been scared all day and fighting it all day and it won't go away and I've tried every drug and I've felt scared every day for months and terrified more days than not and I'm so sick of it that I just feel so frustrated and angry and my doctors don't understand or care if they did understand and they're not the ones who come jolting awake every morning after not enough sleep with fear roiling around in their stomachs and I hate them all.
And I am depressed because constant fear = despair.
Linkadge I am so glad you are here.
Marsha
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