Posted by hypersloth on May 25, 2005, at 15:21:04
In reply to Re: Please Help - Very Frustrated with Panic.. » hypersloth, posted by Maxime on May 25, 2005, at 12:40:03
I sleep pretty good. When I was on Lexapro - the slightest change in my day would set me to insomnia unless it was physical activity.
I made it to work fine now, but it's funny you mention something physical because constantly I keep thinking there is something wrong.Long ago in a land far far away - I used to get excited about doing something new or entertaining..such as going on a weekend vacation to a cabin or a 'real' vacation - or going to play a sport in the upcoming days that I enjoyed. I would also get nervous for serious upcoming events like a job interview, meeting a new client that was important etc etc.
Now I do NOT get these things anymore. I do not get excited to do something - even when the panic attacks were somewhat subsided in my life - nor do I get nervous..I just get anxious and start to panic even.
Something tells me there is something wrong - both mentally because of this, and I DID notice that prior to my panic attacks..I would get a food high when I was hungry and ate something. I would even break into a minor sweat. Many said that had to do with thyroid but the hospitals/doctors said that was tested.I 'appear' to be a healthy caucassian male of my age and have been told I am attractive etc etc yada yada that 'seems' to be in shape and intelligent. Inside however I feel like an 80 year old health wise and have the mental capacity of someone that should be or is one step from entering a rubber room. Sigh. (please excuse my poor spelling and grammar..I'm more math oriented)
So do you think a I should forgoe the statements of the doctors to look into this further?
Btw - I thought of some things that are 'time tested' triggers to anxiety an panic for me..maybe someone can see a pattern..
-Heat/Humidity & even Hot showers
-Hunger
-Driving to somewhere I HAVE to be (not somewhere that I don't have to and can just turn around like shopping)
-Loss of control (being stuck somewhere like: an airplane ECK, work, someone else driving, at a resturant with a client etc etc)I still feel stress and anxiety (a bit) when it comes to things most people experience like: money issues (which I have often), family stress, job stress etc...but nothing out of the ordinary.
Most if not all of my panic issues seem to stem from the above factors. Long ago heart palpitations, excessive exhaustion, things like that set things off - but I've at least controlled things to the point that I know these things aren't problems and don't get myself worked up abotu these things anymore..*Just try to think of something else* (the most common phrase heard from friends and family). I'm sure you all know how impossible that is when you are NOT thinking of having an axiety attack or panic attack..and ARE thinking very strongly about something or just trying to relax and watch tv then BAM all the sudden things start. This is why I truly believed before that there was something physically wrong with me..
Does anyone know anything about MOLD poisioning also? I lived in an old house long ago that was constantly damp in the basement and someone mentioend that maybe that was the cause. Reading up on this, this stuff can make you much more sick than even lead poisoning. Is there a way to test to see if you were affected by this?
Thanks for the replies guys - I REALLY need to find a way to control the issues, if for anything..to be able to function at work and to enjoy my days/times when I am with friends & family instead of hiding inside my house :( I can not tell you how depressing and frustrating this is..I feel soooooo helpless and hopeless.
Thanks again for any replies!
S
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