Posted by wendy0006 on May 4, 2005, at 15:34:35
In reply to ANYONE UNDERSTAND PLSE ?, posted by crazychickuk on April 30, 2005, at 18:10:51
> I am depressed obviousley but i cant cry, i do get panicky over losing my mind other phyiscal symptoms are no bother, i am so paranoid that theres someone watching me all the time, paranoid ppl are out to get me, paranoid someone is following me down my stairs ( i live alone cept my 5yr old) paranoid someone is upstairs, paranoid that what if the tele talks to me, paranoid that i have some kind of a severe mental illness so bad that i will lose my mind, paranoid dead ppl r trying to get into my head, i know none of these are true but cant shift it.
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> I feel detached unreal (for mnths now) my eyes r blurry as if they aint working proply, as if im losing my bladder control (im not) i have no motivation, laffing is a big task, i feel weak and bad news makes me even weaker i can not handle it.
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> i can be sat there watching something on tele and it feels as if my brain is switching off, like it shakes then i panick, my eyes goes side to side as if im having a seizure ( maybe i need glasses?)
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> i havent been on meds sinze stopping zispin sept last yr as they changed the form and i didnt get on with it..
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> im afraid to go to docs they might put me in hospital and they will give me more meds that just dont agree with me at all, i have never been able to get on with any. i see a private physcologist who says its severe anxiety? what about physcotic depression?
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> anyone understand what im talking about? anyone know the answer?
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> i cant touch or feel what i should love !! i shouldnt be here i cant even cry ffs!! feels like im losing my sanity :-(i'm sorry you feel so bad. I guess you're in the uk, but most psych drs here will only put you in the hospital if they think you are a danger to yourself or someone else - so will hospitalize only if you say you're suicidal and have an actual plan.
You should see a psych dr immediately - you most likely need an anti-psychotic to control your irrational thoughts, an anti-depressant to elevate your mood - maybe a mood stabilizer. But I would think the anti-psychotic would help you the most - it has helped me (some) with paranoia, magical thinking, and weird thoughts.
good luck, wendy
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