Posted by notfeelingthebest on April 14, 2005, at 16:41:02
In reply to klonopin and mood stabilizing » Maxime, posted by tendency on April 14, 2005, at 13:17:17
I dont find it mood stabilizing. I'm glad to hear that you're loving it, I did too about a year ago. I don't want to be a bummmer or ruin the old placebo effect, but this has been my experience:
- the feeling of absolute relief: wears off.
- the diminished anxiety that is making you more outgoing: wore off for me.
- euphoric? I never fealt that it actually made me happy; I was just feeling more gratification from my temporary liberation.
The unfortunate thing about benzos for most people is that they are a kind of "flowers for algernon" type drug. Wouldn't it be great if all the bad side effects (memory, clumbsiness) wore off but the good stuff stayed for ever? For once, you'd actually have a drug that was a real live "cure."On a lighter note, it is an anticonvulsant and those qualities seem to remain. I find, and others have too, that a milder calming effect remains - with a constant dose.
You get so used to it, and you don't actually "feel" it, so you begin to think that it is having no effect anymore. This was my experience so I decided to quit. Others find it hard, I didn't - although my life affords me the time to take holidays where I can taper off meds in peace.
Once you're off, you get reaquainted with "old self" and you remember quickly how bad things can be. So I'm back on.
Even when you become tolerant, you may still be free from some of the worst aspects of your non-medicated life. I'd say its about a 30 percent improvement. Not bad my any means, but you'll find that new-self just isnt quite good enough. You'll still be looking for that 80 to 100 percent effect that klonopin first gave you. When will these pharmacy kingpins stop messing around with these ridiculous SSRI things and come up with some kind of non-intoxicating, not-motor skill impairing, completely healthy, alcohol/cocaine in a pill type drug?
It MUST be possible.
Advice: take as little as possible and drag out your current experience for as long as you can. I didn't and I regret it. I still would have eventually ended up here, but that Mr. "hi, how are you? Absolutely nothing at all bothers me" would have been nice to enjoy for a bit longer.
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