Posted by Bill LL on April 11, 2005, at 8:29:35
In reply to i need help, posted by jessers11581 on April 10, 2005, at 20:07:29
I have 2 ideas. First try Ritalin. Then, maybe switfch from Lexapro to Cymbalta as I did a few months a go. Cymbalta affects both serotonin and norepinephrine and could help you with cognitive functions and anxiety.
> I can't stand it anymore. I really don't think I can go on like this. My motivation is gone; I have no desire to do anything at all except eat and sleep. Nothing in my life brings me any pleasure--I feel completely devoid of all emotion except anxiety and worry. I haven't been able to have an orgasm in forever. I am gradually gaining weight and have developed terrible digestive problems over the past year. I don't have any creativity any more. I can't think straight half the time--I feel like a cognitively-impaired vegetable. My memory is terrible, my ability to concentrate even worse. And to top it all off, I feel miserable and guilty to be this self-absorbed and lacking in willpower. The worst is the food addiction. Once I start eating anything sweet or carby, I can't stop. I'm gradually gaining weight and it makes me sick. Yet, I feel like there's absolutely nothing I can do. I don't even want to go on living sometimes, to be quite honest. I just quit my job because I felt like I couldn't handle it any more. I take 20 mg. daily of Lexapro and have tried to supplement with Wellbutrin. However, the WB made me even crazier and more out of control than I am now, so I had to stop. What do I do? Are the meds causing this, or is it depression? WHY CAN'T I JUST MAKE IT STOP?? I'm seeing a counselor, but after our sessions, I feel even WORSE than before, and I usually go on a binge. Why is this? I've never in my life experienced anything quite like this. I've always had problems with OCD and anxiety, but never this sort of apathy and dysfunctionality (is that a word). I'm getting absolutely nothing accomplished in my life. Most days I don't even feel like showering. It's terrible. I'm afraid the next thing to go will be my relationship with my boyfriend (we live together, so he's seeing all of this happen). I know that I ought to be able to take control over this situation, and yet I feel totally incapable. Please, someone give me some confidence!! Tell me how to get out of this pit of despair. Is there a different med that I should be on? What can I do???
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