Posted by Maxime on April 6, 2005, at 19:18:14
In reply to Re: I'm never going to feel better, am I ?, posted by CK1 on April 6, 2005, at 18:07:02
Yes, I know that most people have felt this same awful despair. But this is longest depression I have been in. More than a year now with the last 6 months being the worst of the worst. And now I just have to wait for some new med to come out or have ECT (which I will not do). Plus I feel beaten by my eating disorder.
Thanks for your words of hope. I really hope I get into the DBS study in Toronto.
Maxime
> Maxime,
> Do you realize that everyone on this board has probably felt as bad as you are feeling right now! In February, when it was dark and rainy, I didn't have ANY hope at becoming normal again (and this was after Paxil worked great for me for 3 years and pooped out). It's been three months since I've felt normal and the frustration gets to me, but, I still have hope that something will work, since I feel "a tiny" bit better.
> My aunt and cousin are bipolar and they were depressed for a year straight, but are doing very well now. I've suffered for three months and can't imagine what it would feel like to suffer for 12 months straight, but, my point is, they got better. These conditions are very treatable nowadays, but it can sometimes take A LOT OF TRIAL AND ERROR, which gets INCREDIBLY frustrating.
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> I know what you're saying about mixed states! I've experienced those for the first time this year and they are horrendous!
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> You'll be fine!
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