Posted by Minnie-Haha on March 12, 2005, at 13:45:47
In reply to Oops! I Did it Again, posted by AMD on March 12, 2005, at 0:35:44
> ... After a depressive episode following a February 27th coke binge, and after finally feeling better, I went out Wednesday night and did it again: drank a lot, did a lot of cocaine, and got myself into some (non-legal) trouble...
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> So ... did I do it this time? Did I "screw up" that last time to break the camel's back? Will I /ever/ be happy, move above this?
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> Is there a drug I can take to help me feel better sooner?
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> Are my cognitive abilities, my executive-lobe functioning irreversibly damaged after two nights of cocaine and binge drinking to the point of blackout?
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> Am I going to get nose bleeds now? I've never had one, but suddenly I have an uncanny fear I'll spontaneously begin getting them ... oh my god!
I feel for you! Are you getting psychotherapy right now? If not, I think that would be the #1 best thing for you to do. You may need a (new?) drug, but I think more than anything you need to talk about your addictions and your fears with someone qualified to help you sort through these issues. If you can't afford a therapist, find a minister or rabbi, or a support group in your area. Those options should be free or very low cost.Good luck... and don't forget to breathe!
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