Posted by moosirin on February 25, 2005, at 15:35:48
Hi, I am on a medication for the first time in my life (other than birth control), and I need some advice. I don't have severe depression or severe anxiety, but I've suffered from a long history of generally low / depressed moods, and am a very anxious person. I have a very mild case of bulimia and I have compulsive habits like playing with my hair obsessively (which causes ends to break and then I cut the split ends off, so my hair looks bad in one spot and I have to hide it..ugh) and biting my nails etc. So I have an array of somewhat obnoxious problems...
My therapist recommended medication, so I spoke to a nurse practitioner associated with the counseling center and he gave me the 'starter pack' of effexor xr. I am on 37.5 for this first week, and today is my 6th day.
The first 3 days I felt like I do on cold meds, which I'm particularly sensitive too anyway. I was bouncier though, and talked fast but kept stumbling over my words. Things were funnier and I smiled more and felt more carefree than usual. Then after the third day, in the evening I all of a sudden just kind of crashed. Since then I've been feeling really bummy and low. Today I cried in front of my manager. Dah! Last night I cried on the phone to my boyfriend. I feel very flakey, and like my mind is racing to figure out what's wrong with me and such.
Did anyone else feel these kinds of swings?
The creepiest thing to me, is that I keep thinking 'maybe if i take more, I'll get that high feeling again' and wanting to double up on my last doseages of the 37.5 so I can rush into the 75 mgs which I start in 2 days. I've even considered calling the nurse who prescribed them and asking him if that would be ok. It's like I'm desperately searching for a way out of feeling like I do. I'm thinking about alcohol and drugs, and how nice it would be to get really messed up right now so I wouldn't have to feel like this.
I don't feel *that* low--I mean im not suicidal or anything, i just seem to realllly hate the state I'm in.
Anybody with similar experiences/advice?? Will I get the good feeling again when I up to 75?? please tell me yes! I'm starting to feel crazy when I never thought I was!
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thread:463251
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