Posted by linkadge on February 16, 2005, at 22:50:35
In reply to Re: Its over for me. New psychiatrist is hopeless, posted by mike13 on February 16, 2005, at 22:08:43
I understand that it can take time. I know they need to gather information, but I feel so helpless when they ask so few important questions.
They don't seem to understand the suffering.
If a person is in a car accident, and they are writhing in phsical pain, the first thing the doctors do is give them morphine no questions asked. They don't sit there for days, weeks, months, years and ask them questions like. Hmm "how long before you noticed the car was going off the road" or what do you think was the main cause of the accident".
They don't do that because they can see the pain that the person is in. They know that every second of that pain is pure hell.
I'm in the same pain. It doesn't end. I just can't sit around while they ask me questions and don't even offer the slightest glimmer of hope.
Pain and waiting just don't mix.
Thanks for your help Tamera, but I can't put you through that. I've got to wait longer. Wait to see this guy again. No doctor will see me if I don't give this one a fair chance.
I'm just so depressed. I can't understand why God even permitted this kind of experience. I don't think I could ever have restored faith after all of this.
Its a nightmare. Nothing else can explain it. The pain I have is unbelievable.
Sometimes I think I am in hell already. I just don't know why there isn't somebody who wanted to see me better. Somebody who said to me "I am not going to leave you untill you feel better". God hasn't been that person. He has left me. That is why people kill themselves, because dispite their pain their creator does nothing.
This is terrable. I've never felt so much pain. I cry so hard. But it doesn't help. Its the futility I feel. Why can't god be more merciful?
Why is it every man for himself in this cruel world? Why must hope be so fleeting. Why was I born? Why can't I just die?
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