Posted by catmint on January 29, 2005, at 7:22:15
I can't seem to avoid the number one trigger for mania-lack of sleep. I've always had insomnia; it sucks. I'ts 4 in the morning right now.
I'm trying to come off Lamictal. I feel like I'm really not well.Lamictal has helped with my depression. I'm just having too many side effects, even 2 years later.
When I'm manic, or rather hypo-manic, I have really bizarre thoughts, I feel other people's energy too much, I scowl and glare at people who look at me wierd. I suppose I'm more in a mixed state when that happens. I have such a heightened perception of my environment that I sometimes feel like I'm tripping on acid.
I also get really sexually charged up, but unsuccessfully so, I am tripping about the whole experience; I lose track of my body, my mind won't cooperate. I won't let myself go because I'm afraid.
I hold back the mania as much as I can and I get really pent up. I'm causing a lot of problems in my relationship.
If I could only get on the right med. I've tried every damn one for bipolar disorder.
Thanks for reading,
Amy
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