Posted by Spriggy on January 28, 2005, at 18:03:06
I am sooo at my wit's end and feel like I'm in a hopeless pit.
I shared this before but I've had a few panic attacks triggered by a traumatic event.
Right after my dad's diagnosis (dying), I went 4 days with NO sleep, not eating, and could generally not function on a normal level at all. It was so bizarre. I have ever since felt a brain "fog" but it's not just a calming thing, it's a terrifying thing.
I feel SOO abnormal.I felt this way for those four days, begin to get better and functioning again.
My dr. put me on Lexapro. Now here I am 4 weeks later and I am getting SO MUCH WORSE.
I have always been a very stable person. I'm not overly dramatic or emotional.
This is not me. I am CONSTANTLY in this state of weird, detached, head fogginess that is so weird to explain but it's VERY uncomfortable and downright terrifying.
I go from feeling almost a slight euphoria to the most utter, helpless, deepest, darkest depression I have ever experienced.
I am a born again Christian and believe strongly in Jesus and the Bible. And yet, through this, I can't even figure out how to pray anymore, and am even questioning God's existence.
My thoughts are irrational and extreme. I can't get my mind to stop racing but at the same time, it feels like it's in a coma.
I can't explain this but I honestly think if something doesn't happen soon, I will not survive this.
I have never felt so helpless or desperate in my life.
I saw a psychologist yesterday who wants me to taper off the Lexapro. She is concerned I am having some weird reaction to it.
She also thinks I am experiencing post traumatic stress from my dad and grieving.
She is convinced I am not crazy or bipolar or anything along those lines.. but I certainly do not feel like myself, or "sane" or normal or rational.Could this really be a reaction to the Lexapro?
God help me.
poster:Spriggy
thread:449332
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