Posted by jujube on January 3, 2005, at 22:56:19
In reply to Re: Can your brain learn its way around an antidepress » jujube, posted by Simcha on December 30, 2004, at 23:39:28
Simcha,
You should be very proud of your accomplishments, both academic and personal.
Sometimes I think our parents have a hard time accepting and acknowledging our depressions because they think somehow they have failed us or that our mental illness is a reflection of their parenting skills. Perhaps the head in the sand behaviour is about pride (which is unfortunate not to mention frustrating and narrow minded).
Anyways, it's nice to know there are people out there who understand and who have been there.
Take care, good luck in school, and, I agree with your pdoc, don't push youself too hard. You want to have something left over to give to the patients who will be lucky to have you as a therapist. Be good to you!
Tamara
> Tamara,
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> I can understand you.
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> I have been that person to whom everyone comes to unload their problems. My Mother does not completely understand why I'm on anti-depressants even though she goes undiagnosed.
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> I decided to get an MA in Counseling Psychology to become a therapist. At least that way, people will pay me between $100-$150 to unload and I'll know what to do with it.
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> I'm in my last year. I'm also on a nice cocktail of meds. My psychiatrist, of course, thinks I'm pushing myself too far dangerously. Well, you know, someone has to be the wounded healer. I'm making it and for the most part I'm happy.
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> I have my sadness. This is much different from the old crippling depression. It's taken me some time to isolate the difference.
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> My cocktail?
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> Celexa (now generic Citalopram - YAY!) 40mg in am
> Wellbutrin XL 300mg in pm
> Neurontin (now generic Gabapentin (300mg x 2) - YAY!) 600mg in pm
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> So, I'm in remission. I don't talk to my parents about it much at all. My brother's on meds too. Yet he was much lower functioning. Since I was higher functioning, not less in pain, my Mother reasons that I really don't need the meds. Fortunately, she's not my psychiatrist.
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> Simcha
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> > Thanks for your kind words. I don't want to give the impression that I am not hanging in there. I am. I have to. I am the one that family and friends come to when THEY need to vent or talk about their problems or need help. It just would not be koshar if I was not available. So, it is easier to not divulge my own state of mind to them, and to just deal with it on my own. I have been an independent thinker and doer since early in life, so I have learned to take care of myself and to deal with my problems. It's unfortunate, but not even the pdoc I see is completely aware of what goes on in my head and how bad I feel sometimes. I know I need to learn to be more open with him because it affects the medication decisions he makes or won't make. Perhaps I can make that one of my new year's resolutions. I really can't complain about anything. I have a pretty good life. I just don't want to feel like I do for the rest of it.
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> > Tamara
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> > > Tamara, hang in there. I think people who haven't experienced the thoughts and feelings you're talking about just don't get it. But a lot of people here do! That's what makes this message board such a good support system for so many of us.
> > > You deserve a lot of credit for knowing you want better for yourself than what your parents had and say, and for taking steps to make it happen. That takes a lot of strength. Good luck to you!
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