Posted by ladyofthelamp on November 28, 2004, at 17:19:29
In reply to Re: On the psychiatric ward..... » ladyofthelamp, posted by ed_uk on November 28, 2004, at 14:10:55
I have been thinking hard about whether i was older than 16 but no i really was only 16.I seem to remember my social worker saying it was not normal practice for a child to be on a adult ward.This makes me sound like i was seriously ill but i was not.I was getting into trouble with the police and drinking alot but no suicide bids or anything that dramatic.I suppose my behaviour was quite unusual for a female from a,how shall i put it,a pretty straight laced,law abiding back ground.While this type of behaviour is not so unusual now,i suppose it was in the mid 80's.I was going through a time of feeling terrible and alienated and passively suicidal but i couldn't describe how i felt or why i felt like it.I was talked into hospital,well threatened i suppose after courts referred me to Psychiatrist for reports.Incidentally i was wrongly in adult court at 16 because they recorded my age incorrectly(oh my god i had forgotten about that!!).I suppose i was depressed but i was not given a diagnosis as they said i was too young to label.I had 4 admissions to hospital in approx 4 years which ranged from 1 week to 18 months at a time.I have been told that i was put on strong medication as i was non compliant.This was probably because i wouldn't take anything i thought was too severe or not relevant.Eventually they don't give you a choice as i am sure you know.Phew i am worn out with thinking about this part of my life.The doctors and nurses used to brow beat me into staying and then you get scared to leave.I can remember having rages that were totally out of character and being frozen out by the nurses.I am a very gentle person and feel bad about how angry and nasty i got.I do not know why i was like it then as i am very passive naturally.There that is a tiny piece of my hospital history and it feels almost like i am talking about someone else!
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