Posted by linkadge on November 27, 2004, at 21:28:52
In reply to Re: How can your brain be damaged?? » linkadge, posted by ed_uk on November 27, 2004, at 17:42:22
I tried parnate, and I had mixed results with that drug. On the one hand it made me feel much improved, but I think the dopaminergic effect was too much for me. Of all the AD's I've tried, this one tried to totally reorganize my thinking.
I think it was making me a little psychotic. I felt like a "cosmic contiousness". Kind of like I was stuck in a movie.
I felt so normal, that my mind convinced me that I had lied and faked depression to get on the med - (because I logically knew that it was possible for this med to induce euphoria)
These feelings were so strong, that I told the doctor I wasn't depressed and that I had lied to get on the med. He actually believed me (because he knew of my med knowledge) To make a long story short he took me off parnate, I went to the hospital.It's really messed up cause I felt so well that I'd convinced myself that I'd made up the whole depression story. Well I'm back to depression.
Parnate is very dopaminergic, it was like god was looking into my soul 24/7. Everthing I had ever done wrong, every person I had lied to came into my mind all at once. It was like the only way I could rid myself of it was to go around and tell the truth to everybody about what I had done wrong. It was scary as hell.
Even effexor made me slightly psychotic.
I have a history of psychotic depression "religious melancholy" and bipolar disorder in the family.
Depression is a very hard thing for me to treat.
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