Posted by denise1904 on November 26, 2004, at 9:23:50
In reply to Re: In Limbo, not sure what the next step is., posted by SLS on November 26, 2004, at 8:44:08
Yes I agree with you there, the only thing is I can't get any of my doctors to prescribe Wellbutrin for me and I tried asking one of them to prescribe Wellbutrin he said no too dangerous and they don't use it for depression so I went back to another doctor and tried asking him for Zyban, again he said no, too dangerous.
So I need to get it online but want to find a good reputable site to get it from first.
As far as length of being depressed, I guess I would say since I was 17 although I never thought of it as depression then and I've never thought of them as episodes either.
It's strange really, the only reason I say or now believe that depression is what I suffer from is the fact that I started taking antidepressants when I was 24 and they stopped me feeling ill and took away all of the symptoms I'd been complaining about for years. If I'd have taken an antibiotic and that had taken the symptoms away, I guess now I would be saying I've suffered from an ongoing infection but now the antibiotics don't work anymore:-)
To give you an idea
17 - 22 mild depression, stopped wanting to go out, lost interest in doing the things I used to do. Started feeling more tired than I used to. Thought I had Leukemia or something, I really did.
22 - 24 Started feeling worse (no obvious reason), breathing, backache, stiffness, irritability no amount of exercise helped just made me feel worse.
24 - Started taking Prothiaden and Ureka, my life began again.
27 - Prothiaden started losing it's affect, started taking Seroxat which worked.
31 - Decided to come off antidepressants, was fine for about 3 or 4 years.
35 - 38 (present day) Started having constant suicidal feelings, no energy, anxiety, apathy, back pains, cold feelings, lack of interest and so the search begins.