Posted by rainy on November 2, 2004, at 9:46:06
In reply to Re: topamax and balance » headachequeen, posted by iris2 on November 2, 2004, at 8:47:45
Here's my rationale for staying on a poison drug that is probably messing with my body, although not so much this week, as well as making me stupid making me stupid and causing my spirit to tie itself into question marks. (A holistic medication)
Topmax enables me to be in better control of the buimia that has plagued me since I was 17 (i'm 62) and cut wine consumption down to 3 to five 5 ounces a week with a snack or meal with my husband or at a social gathering.
The latter is important because I spent about five years drinking vodka on the sly until I stopped in 1991. While I was drinking fairly heavily and out of control, I was also on prozac and celexa without any effect except one real suicide attempt and some serious thoughts about others. Also deep depression, alleviated only by my classes in grad school, which I couldn't finish, and my teaching job, which I loved.
It was tooth and nail against blackness and food issues, as well as stumbling and bumbling until Topmax came around.
So, despite my concerns about my personhood being changed or muted or made into somebody I'd rather not be by the drugs, I'd rather stay on than go off. Does that make sense, Lar? Topamax keeps me, now, without benefit of inebriation, from serious mood swings and frequent binging and purging. It's not rational, I know, but it has to do with quality of life. It's scary, too.
This is a week to week decision, too. It's worse than buying a new dress.
rainy
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