Posted by Eljakeo25 on October 28, 2004, at 18:02:37
After having that impulsive episode I described the other day, my mood is not and I feel like a worthless student with no hope a good future. I may need an anti convulsant in replace of the Risperdal to control impulsivity. My adderall tolerance has increased to 90mg a day. Not because I am dependent or crave it, I am using it to fight off the impulsive thougts and depressive tendencies that the other medications are suppossed to be for. I would only take 15-30mg of adderall at a time, but I am sick of my behavior and I am fighting it. But it's wining (btw, no side effects with the adderall at that dose, good blood pressure, and fall asleep fast. But I think the hospital would be a good place to go to trial an anti convusant. I look around on campus, and I seem like other people have it made mentally, focused, happy, in love, and euphoric ALL WITHOUT MEDS. And there a lot further than me in their studies, why does god bless them and god seems to torture me. Sorry I am feeling low right now.
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