Posted by headachequeen on October 28, 2004, at 13:28:58
In reply to Re: topamx question » headachequeen, posted by rainy on October 28, 2004, at 11:17:45
> Ah, Kat, kind words will get you, what? not a day off tegretol, I'm afraid. Are you tolerating the Tegretol any better now that you've been on the new stuff that supposed to counterat the side effects for awhile?
> In truth, yesterday I did make mistakes, of course, because it was the first groupmeeting. I've facilitated groups before, but it's been awhile and I was essentially a newbie. I was so focued on making sure that all ten people had a chance to talk that the discussion never got off the ground, so we are swinging the so called discussion over to the next meeting.
> The only time I may have been "Toped" was when I couldn't find the closing words I'd so carefully chosen and read instead some sort of gibberish that nobody understood. That's OK, we were all of the age where senior moments occur and a couple of people have hearing problems. It's over.
> And I talked too much at check in, where we go around and say what's on our mind at the moment. I think I'm on the verge, if not into hypomania, so that I may need more than 300 mgs of Topamax, especially since last night I fell flat on my face into dark, dark depression. (That makes no sense at all!) This morning I was re reading posts (instead of grocery shopping, this is bad) and I came across one of yours where you cried, "Somebody make it go away!" at the end. This was when you were going through all that torture with the neurologist and the sleep deprivation and the eegs. Anyway, that's how I felt last night--it being the flat black dark.
> What do you guys know about provigil? Anybody been on desyrel (generic trazodone)? The trzadone is what I've got for depression right now. Not enough.
>
> Also, Merry? Are you still with us? How's it going for you?
> rainy
>Rainy, at this point I am having an awful tegretol time... every thing is blurry in my head.. or around my head... I am not having a seizure and have not had one for five days if my count is right but I am not sure what day this is...thought it was Friday was told it is not... the person told me it was not Friday but did not tell me what day it was... delightfully helpful...
having a hard time reading... and I know my husband is tired of it all...
he has to be...
the support med has been discontinued, the one that stops the nausea, but I am still on the one that stops any oh what is it called, they talk about it all the time advertising stuff for it on television during sports on television... I want to call it post nasal drip but it is not...
having a great day, can you tell?
something about acid... and it apparently affects the vocal cords too so that is why I am on it... but it is not helping much, oh it helps the vocal cords because I am singing again, and singing properly and that is a major thing in my life, but I have to be able to read to read the music... this sentence originally read rqzd...
acid reflux that is it...
I do not have problems with heartburn, I am dizzy and afraid to move or go outside on my own because the sidewalk is not where I think it is... and I am not sure where the street is... things like that.. how on earth does one make these medical people understand these things?
oh well, the seizures are not hsppening during the dways at leaset... that has to be a positive thing...
I am waiting now for the sleep clinic people to call and set up an appointment... apparently if I can get this erratic sleep under control things will be better... sleeping properly will make me feel better and I will be less tired during the day and less likely to feel the stress that leads to seizures...
the new neurologist is determined to find the cause of the seizures as well as to control them... but can they just make them go away??as for the people at the session and your closing remarks, don't worry so much, Rainy... most of them will not remember... they are too busy worrying about things they said that they wish they had not said... and worrying that they were not intelligent enough to understand the deep things YOU said to close the session...
Next session relax and you will be fine...you are fine here...
pretend it is this group...and Merry, whre are you and L, where are you???
and what is this zopiclone they have given me to help me sleep...
I have not taken it yet...
I have this paranoia about meds that make me sleep... it will make my brain shut down is what they said... apparently it keeps going even when I want to sleep is what they said....
so what is this stuff....do I really want to use it?
kat
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