Posted by love bites again on September 18, 2004, at 18:32:49
In reply to Re: Emotionally Flat on Paxil - is Lexapro Better?, posted by scottlaen on September 18, 2004, at 13:26:07
You guys are GREAT! Thanks for the feedback - it's a big help.
I feel so stupid. I went on paxil because I'd had weird physical reactions to several antidepressants (like lumps forming on my legs). I never gave it a second though because it did keep my boughts of deep depression away. I went from an energetic, happy go lucky, outgoing, 110 lb 30 year old, to gaining 40lbs the first year on Paxil. I got lazy, tired, dopey and unmotivated. I had to read things 3,4 even 5 times to try and get them to "stick" in my brain and then I'd give up on it. My passion for painting disappeared completely along with any of my usual "happy" feelings toward anything. I stopped going to my kid's sporting events because I didn't want to be around anyone and didn't want to have to shower, do my hair and makeup. I used to take great pride in mysef. The list goes on and on. I was convinced that this was *all* caused by a thyroid condition that wasn't showing up on any of the tests and I even toyed with the idea that maybe I've got a brain tumor. How could I be so blind? I never ever ever considered the Paxil - never. It didn't even occur to me - and I'm a fairly intelligent woman. By accident the other day I looked up Paxil, to see if maybe I wan't taking enough and that's perhaps why my interest in things is gone. I found this site and others and began to cry - you've described *me* (or the lack of me). I've waisted 5 years - I've been so blind. Why didn't I figure it out? I researched every other possibility to death and missed the obvious. I'm definitely going to wean myself off the Paxil, I just know I can't go without an antidepressant of some kind. Thank you so much for being here to help and for giving me some much overdue advice.
hugs
Cheryl
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