Posted by mike lynch on June 20, 2004, at 0:15:52
In reply to Re: ssri's effect on cognitive functioning???, posted by cateb on May 5, 2004, at 20:15:58
I thought i'd bring this thread back, just so I can get an update as to how everyone is doing.
Have any of your cognitive deficts improved?? Or do you still feel as if no progress has been made? Have you found a med, that has helped alleviate any of your symptoms?
The main problem I am having is not so much with cognition (well I think it translates into a cognition problem and is probbly related)but I seem to have lossed my personality , I feel emotionless , I feel like I am no longer myself (I am not on any meds) me and my friends use to have great times together, I find my self constantly reminiscing about them. This makes me more depressed, because it seems as though all the good times are behind me, this med has seemingly taken away my identity and what makes me unique.I feel like a robot, I mine as well be a robot, I don't care about anything , I have no emotions.
I am having trouble reading stuff now, my eye tracking is screwed up, as I am typing this now I am sure I have left out many words in sentences (something i've been doing ever since the paxil) my memory is still shot, I don't seem to enjoy anything anymore.
Is this depression?? Yes. What caused the depression?? The meds completely scrambling my brain. Their were weeks where I felt fine, just trying to get back to my normal flow(after the meds). It never happened, and it seems as though I will be in this ditch forever.
My mom insists its depression and not the meds I WOULD LOVE TO BELIEVE THAT. It's really hard to believe that, my depression has some how altered in this state, when it has NEVER been like this before the meds. It's hard to believe, that even when I feel perfectly fine I still have extreme cognitive problems. It's hard to believe when I find a med that works, I still have problems. It's hard to believe the dozens of ancedotes I acquired online, all happen to be people who are on Paxil.
I am going on prozac now as a last ditch attempt. I just want to be normal again, before the meds...I had some great times, I just want to relive.
poster:mike lynch
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