Posted by scatterbrained on June 17, 2004, at 1:41:45
This is what's going on with me and I need some answers.I'm 21 years old and have been depressed for about 3 years.The symptoms are as follows.Anhedonia,lack of emotion,and the worst symptoms,confusion and short term memory problems to the point of "psuedo dementia"(I'm sorry if I'm repeating some previous post of mine).My doctor is not quite sure whats causing this "pseudo dementia" but since this is very rare for a 21 year old to have, he thinks it might be some sort of disorganized thought disorder.The thing is that I don't have hallucinations,I'm not paraniod and I'm not delusional,I JUST CANT THINK.I'm currently on lamictal-300,Paxil-10 and ritalin.There HAVE been times,usually only lasting a day or two, when I'm lucid, but then I'm back to being in a torturous and debilitated state of confusion. I think the lamictal has helped a little bit and it's too early to tell in regards to the Paxil but the memory problems and confusion are still there and seem to be pulling everything down.It's hard to even tell what the confusion is coming from at this point.Could it be from the meds?Could it be from the depression? Could it be from a thought disorder?I just want to think straight, thats all I care about.If it's psychosis,thats fine with me.I would be totally content with being a little psychotic.It's not the idea of being psychotic that scares me, it's the medications.I'm VERY sensitive to medications and the last thing I would want is some horrific permanent disfigurement like TD.And although TD is somewhat rare in full blown psychotics, It NOT TOO RARE for people with mood disorders, and can come on fairly quickly; especially med sensitive people who are taking ssri.The strange thing is that when my mood is fully lifted, the confusion goes away.Unfortunatly, those are very brief moments.I'm stuck in this horrible dilemma. Should I take an antipsychotic to try to get me out of this depression and risk TD, or should I continue down the antidepressant road?Anyway,I have a few appointments lined up for some other doctors and I'm not going to decide until I get some more opinions. If any of you guys have any clue as to what this could be and/or have gone or are going through something similar I would really appreciate your impute.And Dr Bob, I don't know if you actually interact with the people who are posting but if you do, it would be great if you could post your thoughts,I need as much help as I can get.
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