Posted by littlep24 on June 14, 2004, at 15:28:37
Therapy is suppose to be such an integral part of getting better, especially when you are on the depressive side, which I am. However, I have been in therapy for over 10 years with different talk therapists and am basically in the same place. I worry about the most ridiculous things, who is going to talk to me today, they think I am weird, I am nervous to talk to people because they won't like me. If people have a differing opinion then me I don't know how to live with it and move on I stew over it. For example, the other day I was talking with another mother at a birthday party and she said how she was looking to rent a house and none of them had central air and how could anyone live without it. I came home and told my husband this story and he said so what? Who cares? I don't know why I do. I dwell on this shit and much more. I am not materialistic in any way however nothing is ever good enough for me and I just do not understand myself. I have been told by numerous therapists that I am fighting the system that is trying to help me which really upsets me seeing as how I have put my family in debt with therapy and meds. I feel like I can't try any harder. They also tell me since I have been depressed for so long it is easier to be in this place than to be happy. No way is it easier being happy is a dream to me.
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