Posted by noa on May 12, 2004, at 20:21:10
In reply to Re: Preparing - I don't want to, but part of me is., posted by SLS on May 11, 2004, at 13:46:58
Scott,
I have also known you about 5 years and have seen how helpful you have been to so many people over the years. You can see by all the responses how affected people are by hearing how badly you feel and that you are feeling near the end of your rope.
I am glad today was a tad better. What you wrote:
>I have been trying not to think about things. It really isn't denial, but more like a refusal to attend to things for the sake of survival.
makes total sense to me. Sometimes you have to decide to go on a kind of "autopilot" to survive. This means suspending any decision making, suspending evaluation of your life, etc. Just getting through the day. And it does really help to try to distract yourself during this.
Someone on this thread mentioned the bipolar depression, which was also a good point--that there may be cycles of recurrence that come and go once in a while that don't have to signal a real turn for the worse.
But your doctor seems to think you aren't sufficiently medicated and that is very plausible.
Take it day by day or hour by hour, to get through. Don't make any big decisions now.
Take care, Scott.
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