Posted by lorilu on April 23, 2004, at 12:14:30
In reply to Re: Has topomax helped, posted by bridgey1128 on April 22, 2004, at 19:46:19
> I have bipolar 2 and before I was on topomax I would lie there forever at night trying to go to sleep and my mind would just race from one thing to another. Usually they would be like worse case scenarios. It would keep me awake at night for a couple hours sometimes. I would have to stop myself from thinking about horrible things happening to our kids or family and friends. I would think up stupid arguments and just have these arguments in my head with people! I still have a hard time calming down at night but at least I can calm down faster. It's easier for me to put my mind to rest and not think about 15 million things at once. My "mania" is excessive talking and being hyper around my friends or lots of people. I am a real people person but I know that I could get on people's nerves from being so talkative. I am still talkative but I don't feel like it's edgy and impulsive. Before I felt like I HAD to talk. Now I can just be myself and enjoy being in the conversation. I don't feel like I have to be talking the whole time.
I also was exactly like you before Topamax! Plus I would be trying to think what they were thinking and interrupting and it was a big mess. I knew I was annoying and wanted to make and keep friends at the teacher's lounge so instead of being part of the conversation I ended up just repeateing in my head "Dont talk" over and over again. I was going crazy before Topamax but I didn't know this could be a Bipolar thing. I loved my Topamax but could never really explain why to my pdoc, probably because I can never remember anything on 400mg of Topamax. I better print this. (smile)
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