Posted by COOP on March 4, 2004, at 11:54:33
In reply to Re: Mystic and everyone else too!, posted by mrs c on March 4, 2004, at 9:21:40
Hi
First I am Mr C or Joel
I had such bad attacks that I had to be rushed to the hospital thinking that I was having a heart attack. After having prostate & scin cancer and pains in my chest I was totally loosing it. The attacks after 1 1/2 years got so bad that I wanted to die, just to get it over with. The fear of suffering was worst than dieing. After my operation and than 6 weeks of radation I was so weak and every pain in my body was of cause cancer. I still have many of the pains but they are so important now. I am doing well with the lex and more important decided to go for theropy 10 weeks ago. I go every week and decided to be as honest as I could with myself and the therapist. Three things helped me put my life together. I went back to work part time, some days it was horrible but kept to it. Started to do physical things and make plans for the future.
Planning a vacation or trip even if I deide not to go. Making up my mind that I don't have control over disease ( except VD ) or how long I will live. I am still affread but when I have a pain or problem I say T H E H E L L W I T H IT ! The best reason is that this Saturday I became a first tme grandfather of a little boy that I love and makes be beleave in God.
I hope this helps.
Joel
thanks for your post. I really appreciate hearing from someone who has been through what I fear most, a serious disease. Please tell me how you coped with that. I really can't imagine being able to get through something that scarey. How do you learn to live for "today" and not worry about what tomorrow will bring. That is the question of my life.Currently, I am a healthy women. My problem is that I worry that every little ache or pain, rash, etc. is something serious. I spend days obsessing about it and then it will just stop bothering me for a while until it reappears and I re-worry. I can't wait to discuss all of this with a therapist. Any thoughts? Mrs. C
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