Posted by Minnie-Haha on February 20, 2004, at 19:52:17
In reply to Re: Trileptal - experiences? » Minnie-Haha, posted by katia on February 20, 2004, at 16:03:13
> Can you describe what OCD feels like? I wonder if I'm not that too. I've got a dx of BPII. very real for me.
> I'm just so neurotic, I wonder if this is an OCD quality?Tread lightly sister. I got this DX -- and the original BP2 -- so fast it made my head spin. Have you done some research on the Internet or at the library or bookstore? I don't have ANY of that classic stuff like thinking I have to perform Act A to prevent Event B. I DO get snippets of songs stuck in my head, and I do rhythmic "counting" -- especially when anxious. (For instance, I'll trace a little square pattern on my thigh while I count -- 1-2-3-4, 2-2-3-4, 3-2-3-4.)
And this brings up my whole beef with my OCD DX: I went to a new psychologist and wanted to start a several-sessions discussion about what I'd been feeling and what MIGHT be the problem. I even wanted to revisit my BP2 DX, which was given at the end of one session by a doctor who had never met me before. Could ANXIETY be misdiagnosed as a hypomanic state? Anyway, by the end of the session with this other new (to me) doctor, she'd labeled me OCD. When I complained, she said that was just a further indication that I was obsessive, cause I wanted to be sure about my DX! The fact is, I had wanted to look at my anxiety, which had become overwhelming (unusual for me), and discuss the relationship between anxiety, depression, and obsessive-compulsive behaviors. I wanted to try to understand better what is more likely to cause or contribute to which. Does that make sense?
My biggest "obsession" seems to be wanting to understand things. I worry about what's going on with me lately. I want to understand -- to not just stab at diagnoses and treatments until one SEEMS to be right.
DO SOME RESEARCH ON BP2, ANXIETY AND OCD. Proceed. Proceed, but with great caution and deliberation.
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