Posted by Smiley on February 18, 2004, at 2:16:38
In reply to ((((((( linkadge ))))))), posted by femlite1 on February 17, 2004, at 22:06:17
Linkadge,
I almost cried when I read your posting. I won't go into all my details here, but when I read your posting, I can so relate to exactly how you feel.
All of my life I've been working towards goals, and accomplishing things. Then all of a sudden, these meds take away everything that we've ever been, or known ourselves to be.
I've seen a few of your postings around the board, and you are very talented.
Please don't give up. I too, am searching for answers, and for the person that I knew I used to be.But through all of this tortuous hell that WE WILL END UP LIVING THROUGH, there has got to be a light at the end of the tunnel, that we can't seem to see within our grasp. But, it's out there somewhere.
A promise of what God has made us, and created us to be. What we are going through, in the long run, can only make us stronger, more knowledgable, and more caring and understanding for people that have been in our situations. Because some people on the outside just do not seem to understand.
I too, was on Zyprexa for about 3 months. I could feel no anger, even tho I got angry. I could cry no tears, even tho I knew I should be feeling pain, and zombie-ness, and sedation...and everything else in between.
I started weaning myself off Zyprexa, and then I was able to cry again....seems like that was all I did for two days.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE. And have alot of support from people on this board.
Please don't give up. I too am searching, and wondering why all these meds, and have felt that life just would be better not living it, if I must live the rest of my life, living it how I have been on these meds.
There have been some really good posts to your original message.
I too, don't know who I am anymore.
God Bless You, and Keep You Safe, and Peace to You....
Keep searching for that light, Don't Give Up Yet...intuition and creativity, and you are a blessing and a gift to this world.
If medicines are what you need. Keep trying, OK. I too, am considering no more. I am currently taking Risperdal, and I could almost better handle the Zyprexa than what this current med is doing to me. Now, the Zyprexa doesn't seem so bad. But it did take me away from who I had always been, too.
Sending another hug your way. Take care.
poster:Smiley
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