Posted by sac on February 1, 2004, at 20:35:17
In reply to Re: I'm probably going against my pdoc's advice... » sac, posted by holymama on January 29, 2004, at 16:12:10
I really hear where you are coming from. Pre-kids, I still sufferred from depression but it was relatively easy to treat (Prozac, imipramine, Serzone, paxil, one of these seemed to work find at one time or another). After my first child was born, I was off AD's and I was hypomanic for a year (didn't know it then just felt like superwoman with PMS) then I crashed into a major depression. Started Prozac again and was relatively stable until I became pregnant with baby #2. Went off Prozac and was doing ok with the pregnancy until month 7 when I developed a dysporic mania. I had no firsthand experience with bipolar prior to this but I was extremely frightened. I didn't sleep for 1 week, literally no sleep my mind was racing but I was terribly depressed (AND PREGNANT) My Pdoc started the Prozac (maybe this was a big mistake but because I was pregnant he thought it was the safest route to take). I struggled the remainder of my pregnancy with wild mood swings and pushed the Prozac to 40mgs. After the birth of my second child, I collapsed into a profound post-partum depression/psychosis and was becoming manic with the prozac. That was 3 years ago and I am still trying to find the right med combo to stabilize. My Pdoc and I know now that I am bipolar and need a mood stabilizer but for the longest time I just didn't know what was happening to me. I am going through another depression now and am re-trying lamictal with Prozac. I understand how you feel when you think back on earlier years and dealing with depression seemed relativley straight forward(although still profoundly painful). I am so totally confused by my moods now and am having a hard time with the bipolar dx. Sounds like you have mixed episodes like me which are really distressing especially being with the kids all the time, I don't like them to see me so activated and irritable. I hope I find a combo that works and I wish the best of luck to you. -Stacey
> Sac, what were you like pre-kids? When were you diagnosed? Prekids I had always had bouts of depression and probably some hypomanic times too, but after having kids the depressions started to last longer, get deeper and be more often. After having kid #3 there was barely any break in the depression -- and when it would break, I would be the opposite -- euphoricly high, obsessive, talkative, excited...then I started feeling suicidal in my last big depression, and that's when I started meds. I'm kind of missing those days when I was at least predictabally depressed for 6 months or so. I think that I must be kidding. That sucked. :)
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