Posted by thomas1111 on November 16, 2003, at 5:40:07
In reply to Re: Opioids for depression, posted by kore on October 29, 1998, at 15:49:14
just noticed the forum on treating deppression with opioids and was so pleased even ecstatic!..b/c it is a subject i feel very strongly about...i have a lot to say so ill just get started.. i have been clinically diagnosed w/depression/bi-polar disorder/manic depression etc..since about the age of 16,when i saw my first psychologist...i now know i have been suffering with these symptoms all my life..years of therapy did wonders for me. I graduated from many programs and therapy groups, but still seemed to have this chemical thing going on, these way-ups and way-downs associated w/bi-polar, i never hallucinated or any thing like this only suffered from severe deppression for days at a time,followed by many days of grandeur like feelings....anyway, to get to my point, i began to self medicate with alcohol, marijuana, cocain,and ecstacy...or pretty much any thing i could get my hands on , exept for the opioids-they never seemed to agree with my stomache..and i just didnt like the way they made me feel then....then some thing happened i had fallen 26 feet to the concrete and needless to say was pretty messed up for quite a few months-well to make a long story short i came out an addict of pain pills-my girlfrind at the time was a massage therapist who suffered from a lot of these same sympytoms so many of us do..but she was bound and determined to break free from these terrible states of mind through a combination of exersise, positive affirmations, yoga,meditation and occasional marijuana use-basically everything but the heavy drugs...im no longer with her but occasionally we communicate and she still is fighting these same battles with depression and most of the time losing..im not knocking any of these methods im just saying that there not enough for a lot of us...to get back to opiates ididnt realize it for about a year but i was addicted..im a photographer, i went out for 3 months of shooting...the whole time i was more depressed than i have ever been...when i came back i went on a long binge of taking lorecets,vicodens and eventually oxicontin..it was very easy to aquire these drugs b/c i live in new orleans and the amount of pain clinic doctors who write these medicines(mostly lorcet,vicode,oxy.,methadone and xanax and soma)was on the rise here now there everywhere in this city, and so easy to get into that almost any one could get large quantitys of these drugs so easily...when it got to expensive for me i went to the doctors and stayed on a roller coaster for years eventually ending up on the methadone clinic where ive been now for 7 months......this is the most important thing i want to say...i have not been depressed since i got on the methadone clinic--i dont want to be back to that state of deppresion again...i feel great now--no anti-deppressant did that for me...why is sit that the drugs like prozac and zoloft are so readily prescribed for these symptoms sooo many of us have...im not getting off methadone any time that i can see in the future--its a small price yto pay to not feel those sad even sometimes suicidal feelings again...why arent doctors prescribing it for us--because its addicting--well it sucks being addicted but now that im getting it from adoctor that i only have to see once a month and not go somewhere everyday or 3 days a week to get the methadone....its my happy pill and its a small price to pay to not be depressed anymore...this is my opinion does anyone feel theway i do...id like to hear from doctors @ what they feel @ the tradeoff.....thomas
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