Posted by anks on November 11, 2003, at 23:50:51
In reply to Re: dont know where to go from here, posted by MelD on November 11, 2003, at 20:10:54
> I am bipolarII, although not a rapid cycler like you. I also have never suffered an eating disorder, but have some understanding because my sister in law is the same as you, only schizophrenic. She has been suicidal and hospitalized, i have not. Now, with all that info out of the way, i just want to say to you that what Elle said is so true. You must be a survivor or you would not still be with us and posting to this board. Something in you wants to live and get well, even though you have been living in hell for a long time. I can tell you that i spent over 15 years living depressed and wondering how i could stand living another day, let alone the rest of my life. I also isolated myself. What i had going for me was a supportive husband and a very good pdoc who is savvy about meds and treatments. I tried one thing after another and finally, finally, finally found the magic. For me it happens to be an maoi, Parnate, augmented with Topamax. I could try to describe the joy and wonder of feeling "normal", but i dont think it does any good until you feel it yourself, WHICH YOU WILL. I can honestly tell you that it was worth all the crap of trying new things, all the disappointments, washouts, side effects, everything to get where i am today. At age 54 i am truly depression free for the first time. It is never too late. My heart goes out to you that you still have to go through it to find your magic, but please just cooperate with your doc, do both therapy and meds and keep telling yourself you are worth it even when you dont believe it. Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing. Melodie
Wow, thank you so much, great to hear success stories. Your strength is inspirational, 15years must have been unimaginable difficult. I'm now on aurorix, is that like parnate? and the mood stabiliser you mentioned would be my next step, so it gives my hope when i know what it has done for you. I haven't been on a stabiliser before and am a bit worried about the effects, did you have some negative experiences? It's funny that you should comment on the joy of normality, i often think that people who have been through such events have a deeper happiness for the simplicity of a day. Keep posting, i would really like to know how you are going and more about you. Thank you.
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