Posted by headachequeen on October 23, 2003, at 21:26:35
In reply to Re: Topamax Weight Loss Advice?-UPDATE » Bear, posted by platinumbride on October 14, 2003, at 23:43:34
> I have been told, a beautiful woman......"what >a shame she doesn't lose some of that >weight....she has such a beautiful face"
I know that this board is not really about weight and weight loss or retention... but as I read the previous posts to learn more about Topomax and its (potential??) side effects, this post jumped out and hit me...
Diane, sometimes , especially in a woman, weight gain or overweight, or call it what you will, is a statement that she doesn't care what the world's pattern for her may be.. she knows who she is and what she can do, and does not want to fit into the hole on the game board that others expect her to fill... sometimes she is trying to make people meet her on her own terms... to make them accept her as being intelligent and capable and not a Barbie doll type...
I am not trying to play shrink here, but I know as I look back that my bout with anorexia was a scream for someone to notice and help me as I tried to deal with the things that were happening in my life, just as the extra weight later was a way of telling the world that if noone wanted to help me then, I didn't want to play by its rules now... I was smarter than most of them anyway so what did looks matter anyway?
I don't pretend that I would not have liked to be slimmer but not to please anyone out there...
of course there are few if any photos of me taken during that time...
Topomax was not intended to be the cure for not liking myself... it was to help with epilepsy and migraines... and it is doing that... but along the way it has changed the weight pattern... and I like that too... since January I have changed from size 16 jeans to size 10 jeans and can wear size small jeans and from XL sweaters to medium... and I feel quite smug about it...
the shrink bit helps too as I am beginning to feel better about being me... and all that goes with that... but who cares what the people who see you and think that you might look prettier thinner???
How do you look at you??? Put on make-up, dress so that you feel good about you, and go out there and look them all in the eye and dare them to think otherwise... don't let them get you down...
or put you down...
they may be thin... but they aren't perfect...
kat
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