Posted by katia on September 21, 2003, at 16:19:58
In reply to Re: An Ode to Alone » madwand, posted by BarbaraCat on September 20, 2003, at 21:29:13
Hey Barb!
Are you back? Has it been ten days? I guess i've sorted of taken a psychobabble break. I've been (yes again) looking for a new place to live.I just wanted to say hi and address the below --
>>Sometimes I can be a real wild and crazy party animal, but my true nature has always been as a lone explorer. Realizing I'm not a weirdo in preferring not to hob-nob with this rather strange human race made me feel quite relieved - not so weird, strange, unpopular, aloof, snooty - all those unkind judgements that make us doubt ourselves. The truth is, I'm a very loving, compassionate and empathetic person, but too many people exhaust me and drain my life force.
yes, wouldn't you know it I'm one of these people too. I think that's why I started drinking so much at parties. So i could tolerate it! and then would somehow become the center of the party then! This polarities make BP sense. Know what i mean? Prior to that, I was the "cat" person too. I remember as a child wandering to back bedrooms and drawing or crawling under the christmas tree and staring up into with a brand new perspective on life!
The introvert in me recharges alone. as you said "other people exhaust me and drain my life force". I've often wondered how much of this in me has to do with depression or just being a sensitive person or lacking "psychic" boundaries and getting too much mixed up energy going on in my own. There are so many factors to this!
lately, I've been "trying" to be more social (the past couple years) and it's actually been nice to let people in and show my other sides to. anyway, interesting conversation..... if we get redirected and you want to respond, I'll follow it.
Katia
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